Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Just some thoughts.
So, I have been thinking a lot lately, especially since we have had to work on a behavior change in health class. I have awful self-esteem, or if you rather....none. I can't seem to accept myself how I am. I look in the mirror and despise what I see. If there's such a thing as a "fat girl syndrome" I have it. I have lost 70 pounds, and still see the same 70 pounds heavier girl. What if I lose the last 40 pounds and still see the fat girl? Has anyone else gone through this? How did you get through it if you did?
Another thing I would like to write about, just to get off my mind....is depression. I am constantly depressed. It keeps me from functioning to my fullest sometimes. Sometimes I just lie around instead of getting stuff done when I am depressed. Somedays I feel so down that I can't concentrate on school work so I keep procrastinating. Sometimes I feel so depressed I don't want to get up and work out, or eat healthy. I am wondering if that's why I am having a hard time losing weight now.....and then I feel that I will never lose the rest and I will be fat forever, which only depresses me more and I spiral even further.
I am afraid I need help, but I don't want to get help. Not sure I can handle the depression much longer though.
Another thing I would like to write about, just to get off my mind....is depression. I am constantly depressed. It keeps me from functioning to my fullest sometimes. Sometimes I just lie around instead of getting stuff done when I am depressed. Somedays I feel so down that I can't concentrate on school work so I keep procrastinating. Sometimes I feel so depressed I don't want to get up and work out, or eat healthy. I am wondering if that's why I am having a hard time losing weight now.....and then I feel that I will never lose the rest and I will be fat forever, which only depresses me more and I spiral even further.
I am afraid I need help, but I don't want to get help. Not sure I can handle the depression much longer though.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Short Story Ideas....?
So, in my creative writing class we have to write 2 short stories. My first one is complete. It's about 2 cars full of people that get in a wreck, and then the people are stranded.
However, the second one I am having trouble coming up with an idea. If anyone who reads this has a good idea feel free to leave a response!
Will post my ideas as I find/think of some.
-Your camera has images on it that you haven't taken
-In a hall of mirrors where each mirror reflects a character trait, you see yourself as you really are
- Write about a potato and his/her adventures working at McDonalds
-Character gets amnesia (how?) and the story is about them uncovering their past and getting their memory back
-Write a story about an executive and a gang member stuck in an elevator. (Note: The executive has a wallet full of cash. The gang member has a knife in his jacket.)
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However, the second one I am having trouble coming up with an idea. If anyone who reads this has a good idea feel free to leave a response!
Will post my ideas as I find/think of some.
-Your camera has images on it that you haven't taken
-In a hall of mirrors where each mirror reflects a character trait, you see yourself as you really are
- Write about a potato and his/her adventures working at McDonalds
-Character gets amnesia (how?) and the story is about them uncovering their past and getting their memory back
-Write a story about an executive and a gang member stuck in an elevator. (Note: The executive has a wallet full of cash. The gang member has a knife in his jacket.)
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