Thursday, December 22, 2011

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Friday, December 2, 2011

Update & College

I have not updated in a while, so I thought it was about time. I have been stuck at a plataeu with my weight loss for a long time now, probably about 6 months so I felt no need to update during that time.

I saw my nutrionist today (well yesterday since it is now friday) and finally showed a loss on her scale ( a whopping .4 of a pound, but still a loss). Going to start training more, eating under 1500 calories, keep tracking what I eat, and hopefully get back on the right track.

College has been tough to maintain with my weight loss schedule (or vise versa?) but I have been doing my best.

I passed Macroeconomics I know, the final grade I am not sure of yet, but I will either have a 79 percent or an 81 percent (will clarify when I know for sure).

Writing class is going okay, got to revise my stories, I think poetry is more of my venue than story writing. However, I need the elective credit to graduate.

Science. Now that I am concerned about. The labs have taken a lot of energy, but I think the professor will like my work. Still a lot of work in that class even though the semester ends in 14 days. (2 tests, 1 quiz, and the big lab portfolio).

Health, will go into January, so no christmas break. Need the class to graduate though so will do what needs to be done. The class isn't too hard in all honesty. There are 6 assignments due a week, but they are not hard.

Next semester I will be taking Biology, College Algebra, Spanish, and music appreciation. My graduation audit stated that I needed 1 more science class, and 1 math and a few more electives.

Will update on final grades after December 21st.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Just some thoughts.

So, I have been thinking a lot lately, especially since we have had to work on a behavior change in health class. I have awful self-esteem, or if you rather....none. I can't seem to accept myself how I am. I look in the mirror and despise what I see. If there's such a thing as a "fat girl syndrome" I have it. I have lost 70 pounds, and still see the same 70 pounds heavier girl. What if I lose the last 40 pounds and still see the fat girl? Has anyone else gone through this? How did you get through it if you did?

Another thing I would like to write about, just to get off my depression. I am constantly depressed. It keeps me from functioning to my fullest sometimes. Sometimes I just lie around instead of getting stuff done when I am depressed. Somedays I feel so down that I can't concentrate on school work so I keep procrastinating. Sometimes I feel so depressed I don't want to get up and work out, or eat healthy. I am wondering if that's why I am having a hard time losing weight now.....and then I feel that I will never lose the rest and I will be fat forever, which only depresses me more and I spiral even further.

I am afraid I need help, but I don't want to get help. Not sure I can handle the depression much longer though.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Short Story Ideas....?

So, in my creative writing class we have to write 2 short stories. My first one is complete. It's about 2 cars full of people that get in a wreck, and then the people are stranded.

However, the second one I am having trouble coming up with an idea. If anyone who reads this has a good idea feel free to leave a response!

Will post my ideas as I find/think of some.

-Your camera has images on it that you haven't taken
-In a hall of mirrors where each mirror reflects a character trait, you see yourself as you really are
- Write about a potato and his/her adventures working at McDonalds
-Character gets amnesia (how?) and the story is about them uncovering their past and getting their memory back
-Write a story about an executive and a gang member stuck in an elevator. (Note: The executive has a wallet full of cash. The gang member has a knife in his jacket.)

Tuesday, October 25, 2011


I'm hoping I will be able to graduate after the coming spring semester, putting this together so I can figure out of I can. Need a "graduation audit" soon.

The Liberal Arts program is designed to allow students to
create their own specialized pathway to their Associate’s
Degree. In addition to completing CSI’s general education
and health requirements, a student must also complete
twenty six credits in content areas of their choice. This
freedom allows one to design a degree to work specifically
towards an intended vocation or to meet very specific
requirements of various transfer institutions. The Liberal
Arts program is not intended for students who are
undecided or undeclared regarding a major, but rather to
provide an opportunity for students to customize the
educational program to suit their individual needs.
Course Course Title Cr Hrs
Required Courses
COMM 101 Fundamentals of Oral Communication 3 -Done
ENGL 101 English Composition 1* 3 - Done
ENGL 102 English Composition 2* 3 -Done
HUMA GE Any Gen. Ed. Humanities Course 3
HUMA GE2 Any 2nd Gen. Ed. Humanities Course 3
MATH GE Any Gen. Ed. Math Course 3 - Done?
SCIG GE Any Gen. Ed. Science Course 4 --Currently taking
SCIG GE2 Any 2nd Gen. Ed. Science Course 4
SOCS GE Any Gen. Ed Soc. Science Course 3 - Done
SOCS GE2 Any 2nd Gen. Ed. Soc. Science Course 3
Social Science courses must be from 2 different disciplines
ELEC GE Any Additional Gen. Ed. Course 4
PHYE 155 Health & Wellness 3 - starts in 2 weeks.
or PHYA 2 credits of PHYA Activities 2
ELEC ANY** Electives: Bring Total to 64 Credits 25-26
Total Credit Hours Required for this Major: 64 (40 completed, 53 after this semester)
*Prerequisite or corequisite required.
**No more than 20 college-level elective credits may come
from one discipline area.
Computer Literacy requirement must be completed - Done

Course Number Title CR Type Grade Rpt Hrs Att Hrs Ern Hrs Gpa Qual Pts GPA
2006-07 : Fall Semester
COMP-100 Introduction to Computers LT 1.00 A 1.00 1.00 4.00
ENGL-101 English Composition 1 LT 3.00 F * 0.00 3.00 0.00
MATH-015 Prealgebra ZL 3.00 A 3.00 3.00 12.00
MUSI-108 Survey of Jazz and Pop Music LT 3.00 B 3.00 3.00 9.00
STUS-101 College Study Methods LT 2.00 A
None Term Totals : 12.00 9.00 12.00 33.00 2.7500
Good Career Totals : 12.00 9.00 12.00 33.00 2.7500
Acad Hnrs :
Acad Stand :
2.00 2.00 8.00
2006-07 : Spring Semester
BUSA-215 Introduction to Information Science LT 3.00 B 3.00 3.00 9.00
ENGL-101 English Composition 1 LT 3.00 A R 3.00 3.00 12.00
INFT-000E Computer Literacy PF 0.00 P 0.00 0.00 0.00
MATH-025 Beginning Algebra ZL 3.00 A 3.00 3.00 12.00
PSYC-101 General Psychology LT 3.00 A
Dean's List Term Totals : 12.00 12.00 12.00 45.00 3.7500
Good Career Totals : 21.00 21.00 21.00 78.00 3.7143
Acad Hnrs :
Acad Stand :
3.00 3.00 12.00
2007-08 : Fall Semester
COMM-101 Fundamentals of Oral Communication LT 3.00 B 3.00 3.00 9.00
ENGL-102 English Composition 2 LT 3.00 B 3.00 3.00 9.00
MATH-108 Intermediate Algebra LT 4.00 C 4.00 4.00 8.00
MUSI-100 Music Appreciation LT 3.00 F
None Term Totals : 13.00 10.00 13.00 26.00 2.0000
Good Career Totals : 34.00 31.00 34.00 104.00 3.0588
Acad Hnrs :
Acad Stand :
0.00 3.00 0.00
2007-08 : Spring Semester
HIST-111 US History 1 LT 3.00 C 3.00 3.00 6.00
MATH-143 College Algebra LT 3.00 F 0.00 3.00 0.00
SOCY-101 Introduction to Sociology LT 3.00 C 3.00 3.00 6.00
THEA-101 Theatre Appreciation LT 3.00 B
None Term Totals : 12.00 9.00 12.00 21.00 1.7500
Good Career Totals : 46.00 40.00 46.00 125.00 2.7174
Acad Hnrs :
Acad Stand :
3.00 3.00 9.00
2011-12 : Fall Semester
BIOL-120 Environmental Science LT 0.00 WIP 0.00 0.00 0.00
ECON-201 Principles of Macroeconomics LT 0.00 WIP 0.00 0.00 0.00
ENGL-292 Creative Writing Ficton LT 0.00 WIP 0.00 0.00 0.00
PHYE-155 Health & Wellness LT 0.00 WIP
Term Totals : 0.00 0.00 0.00 0.00 0.0000
Career Totals : 46.00 40.00 46.00 125.00 2.7174
Division Career Totals : 46.00 40.00 46.00 125.00 2.7174
If all these are passed, I will have 53/64

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Another Get To Know Me Post

1. First Name: Courtney

2. Were you named after anyone? I don't think so

3. Which finger is your favorite? My Middle, of course. Just kidding.

4. Have you ever sang into a hairbrush? Yeah I probably have

5. When did you last cry? A little while ago.

7. What is your favorite place to eat lunch? Just eat lunch, or as in eating out?

8. Any bad habits? I am not sure.

9. most embarrassing CD on the shelf? Don't really feel embarrassed by any of my music choices.

10. If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself? probably not. i don't like some of the things i do..

11. Are you a daredevil? sure?

12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? a few times i have. but they never were like serious about it. if they told me that it was important to keep it i definitely would

13. Do looks matter? No, they are not.

14. Have you ever said a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? Yeah

15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? I don't.

17. Do you like to shop? Usually no. I like to get in an out.

18. How do you release anger? Punching something.

19. Where are your second homes? Where I am now.

20. Do you trust others easily? No. I only trust one or two people these days.

21. What was your favorite toy as a child? Honestly i am not sure?

22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? well I always hated history and science.

24. Do you use sarcasm a lot? yeah!

25. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? no

26. What do you look for in a boy/girl? I don't look anymore, I found the one I love.

27. What are your nicknames? Alex. A friend used to call me ninja.

28. Would you ever bungee jump? yes i would love to. I might.

29. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? not usually

30. Do you think you're strong? Physically, sure. Emotionally, no.

31. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? Peanut butter.

32. What's your favorite color? black and/or red.

33. What is/are your least favorite thing(s)? most fruits and vegetables.

34. How many wisdom teeth do you have? none anymore.

35. Are you in love with anyone? Most definitely <3

36. How many people have a crush on you? Well I know a few who like me, but they'll just have to deal that I am happily taken.

37. Who do you miss most right now? My <3

39. What are you wearing right now? clothes!

40. What are you listening to right now? Cobra Starship.

41. What color are your shoelaces? Green.

42. What was the last thing you ate? a turkey burger.

43. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? an epic one.

44. How is the weather right now? Hot.

45. Last person you talked to on the phone? I don't do the phone, so I don't even remember.

46. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? Eyes, smile, hair, etc

49. Favorite drink? Pepsi Max.

50. Favorite alcoholic drink? I don't drink anymore really, but anything strong.

54. Do you wear contacts? no.

55. Siblings and their ages? none

56. Favorite months? Don't have one.

57. Favorite food? Pizza, tacos

58. Last movies you watched? I watched sleepover. It was really good

59. Favorite day of the year? not sure.

60. Are you too shy to ask someone out? I always was.

61. Scary movies or happy endings? Love horror films

62. Summer or winter? Autumn.

63. Hugs or kisses? Both are nice.

64. Relationships or one-night stands? Relationships

68. Living arrangements? I live with my mom and my dog at the moment.

69. What books are you reading? school textbooks.

70. Favorite board game? Life?

71. What did you watch on TV last night? I shouldn't be alive.

72. Favorite smell? Rain.

73. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? The one I <3

74. Have you ever liked someone who lives far away from you? YES.

75. Whats your address? If you don't know, you lose!!

76. Whens your birthday? Nov 7

77. What color are your eyes? Blue

78. Do you like anyone right now? No. I love them.

79. Do they like you back? They love me too.

80. what kind of shoes do you have? High-tops.

81. Do you want kids? Yes.

82. What will you name them? Leah for a girl, I like.

83. What do you want for christmas? Well, I don't think I will get it, so no need to say

84. Snow or sun? Sun

85. Whats your natrual hair color? RED :(

86. What color is your hair now? Blond, except the roots.

87. Who is your most annoying friend? I dont think i have one

88. Who is your nicest friend? anyone who is STILL around.

89. Favorite sport? Basketball.

90. How old are you? almost 24.

91. Do you have any pets? I have a dog

92. Favorite memory? Anytime spent with the one I love.

93. Ever worn a flower in your hair? Nope.

94. What color is your tooth brush? Blue.

95. What color is you phone? what phone.

96. Whos your idol? I dont have one.

97. What color are your shoes? black,white,green

98. Concert you want to go to? not sure.

99. Ever been hurt in a mosh pit? No

100. Know anybody who has a crush on you? Didn't i already answer?

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

confused thoughts

Not sure why even post, but its driving me insane. For all of my life I was the joke. I was never that well liked. However now that I am getting healthier and my look is changing, I find that people think of me differently. I get comments like I am cute, pretty, beautiful...etc and I do not see it. Also find that a lot like me and want a chance with me. It's new and overwhelming. I don't even know how to react to all this flattering attention. Just not sure what to think.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Get to know me #2

If you were drunk and couldn’t walk, would the person you last kissed, take care of you?
Don't know them that well, but i'm sure.

What do you prefer skittles or starbursts?

Are you a big fan of snowstorms or thunderstorms?

Whose car did you ride in last?
My mothers.

Do you regret doing something today?
Lots of things.

Are you a mean person?
I can be.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?

If you could go back in time and change things, would you?
No, things happen for a reason.

Who’s the last person to give you a piggyback ride?
That would be no one.

What’s something you want right now?
To see a special person.

Would you consider yourself tall?

Is there anybody that you wish you could fix things with?

Do you have feelings for anyone?
Yea a few.

Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Not really.

Who taught you how to swim?
I dont know.

Have you ever talked on the phone in the shower/bathtub?

Are you shy?

Are you close with your siblings?
Don't have any.

Are you open about your feelings or closed?

Do you think anyone has feelings for you?
Well they stole my heart, so yeah I would like to think so.

Is there anything/anyone you’re losing faith in?

Is there a specific moment you can replay in your mind perfectly?
Yeah, Saturday.

Are you afraid to stay home all alone?

Whose bed were you on last besides yours?
Wouldn't you like to know.

What is your favorite thing about the beach?

How many kids do you want to have?
I don't know.

What was the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Turned off the computer.

Have you ever found someone you really really really liked?
Yes, really really.

You think “I love you” are strong words?

Meet anyone new lately?
Yes :D

What was the last movie you watched?
A nightmare on Elm street movie.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?

What are you currently listening to?

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?

How late did you stay up last night and why?
3 Am, cause I wanted to.

Do you still have items that belong to your ex?

Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
not yet

Do you like to hold hands?
Yes, I love to.

Are there certain things that can’t be joked about with you?

Do you put ketchup on your fries or on the side?

Is heartbreak really as bad as it sounds?
Worse than it sounds

Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else?
on a couch, no.

What’s worse, having someone mad or disappointed in you?
Disappointed; I think.

What’s your favorite season?
Autumn; or spring.

Can you recall the last time you really liked someone?

With your last kiss, were you standing, sitting, or lying down?
lying down

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
No, the floor ;]

Is it hard leaving people behind?

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you?

Could you go a day without eating?
I have in the past.

Which of your friends would you most likely get arrested with?
What friends.

Are you attracted to the last person that kissed you?
yeah I was

Friday, February 25, 2011

Update 15

It has been a while since I have posted an update. There has not been a lot of news to update with so I haven't really felt the point in posting one. However, I figured now was a good chance to let anyone who stops by know what is going on.

This month I saw my doctor and my nutritionist. At the doctor's office I lost another 18 pounds in 3 months. So that is just about 50 pounds since June. Since my highest weight I have lost about 58 pounds.

My A1c also got rechecked and unfortunately it went up to 6.8 (from being 6.7 three months ago) It's not a huge deal but I want to get under 6 %.

My nutritionist also would like me to be interviewed for the local paper. Since March is a month about nutrition, she wants to get some recognition out in the community and let people know that dieting can be done the right way. It may not be easy, or always fun but it is doable. Commitment and focus are very important, not just diet and exercise.

Anyway, that is the most important information for my little update.

Until next time, I will talk to all of you soon.

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Dancing Dreams

Ever since I could walk, I have loved dancing. It was always a dream of mine to be a professional dancer. However, I never was able to take classes. I gave up trying out for my high schools dance team because of my anxiety.

Now, I really regret all of that. I still really love to dance, but unfortunately I am too late to do anything about it. I could take classes and become better, but by the time I was at a pro level, I would be too old.

If there is something you wish you could go back and change, what would that be?

Thursday, January 20, 2011

Update # 14

I've been on this new journey for over 7 months now. It has been a lot of things except for easy. However, things that are worth it are never easy. A lot is changing and I am finding that some of my dreams have even changed. I'll get into that information someday. This still, however, is about my weight loss/ getting healthy journey.

So, today (January 20th) I met with my Nutritionist. We talked about how my food has been, how much exercise I have been doing, and went over my blood sugar. They aren't perfect, or even that low, however they have been under 200 for a long time which is very important. In time my goal will be to never go above 140, and when I am fasting stay under 120.

I lost 6.4 pounds in 5 weeks. Ever since I started in June, I have been consistantly losing weight at 6 pounds (give or take half a pound here and there). Since my highest weight I have lost about 55 pounds. I have around 60 (at the most) left to go.

I also lost 10 inches around my waist. I still have about an inch to get to a healthy waist size, but my goal is 5-10 more.

I understand this second half will be harder, and I am definitely not looking forward to the slower progression.....but I am looking forward to finishing what I started. I am not there yet, but as soon as I can, I want to be able to say that I used to be fat...but I never will be again.

There are so many things I want to do once I lose the weight.

Anyway, that is all for this update. Until next time, I will talk to all of you soon. xx